Uncomfortable....

Not something that we generally look forward to, or even ask for... Being Uncomfortable.

That's exactly where I am these days. In what feels like a constant state of being uncomfortable. Never mind that I ask for it. Never mind that I have willingly open myself to God's promptings, no matter how uncomfortable doing so may make me feel.

If that sounds something like an oxymoron (probably not the correct choice of analogy), it probably is. Being uncomfortable is the last thing I want, because it usually means I get frustrated & easily aggravated & all those other not so wonderful emotions.

It's the last thing I want, but it's the very thing that I absolutely need; that I must be open to. Without opening myself up to being so completely uncomfortable, I miss out on whatever it is that I am needing most to learn. Because while I am sure I could spout off several things that I think are needed learnings in my life, without fail, if I allow it, God whomps me upside the head in these times of being extremely uncomfortable. And it would be so much easier if I was smart enough to "get it" early on. But no, not me. I generally have to get whomped at least a couple of times for "it" to really start to get through my thick, stubborn head.

Lately (this being the past several months) it seems like there has been a need for me to be uncomfortable moreso than usual. You'd think I would quit asking God to do whatever He needs to through me, since the more He does the more uncomfortable things in my world seem to be.

Some might say I am a glutton for punishment (they could be right).

For now though, for me, as crazy as it may sound, I feel this crazy compelling need to keep
pushing to be uncomfortable.

Some may wonder how exactly God is accomplishing this; how He is going about making me so uncomfortable. If that's you asking the question, stay tuned. While it has been a while since I have been on here, I will try to share some of the ways this has been taking place.

And if you weren't asking that question, then you probably won't really be interested in any of the soon to come postings....